May 27, 2005
(Everything I Do) I Do It For You
Hey bitches. Today has been a pretty good day. I got to sleep until 12:00. Which is always good. I don't know why but I can't stay up very late or sleep in very late anymore. I think i'm getting old or something. I dunno. But somehow I gotta learn to before summer rolls around. I always stay up late during the summer. That's just one of those things. I didn't have to go to school today. YAY! They said that they took up attendance but I don't fucking care. I needed a damn day away from that hell hole of a school. It sucks that I didn't get to see Co-twat or Jasmin but I guess i'll just see them monday. Its hard to believe that its already friday. Geez. This week has went by really fast. That's shocking though. I'm stop rambling now.
Umm, I smell cake. But i'm the only one here. That's weird but oh well. I'm not complaining because I love that smell. It's better than smelling the nasty cigratte smell. My dad and step-mom smoke the nastiest cigs. It's gross. I quit smoking so now everytime I smell it, it makes me sick. You think it would get someone to start smoking again but not me. I had to quit though. My lungs were killing me and everytime I would turn around I would be sick with upper respiratory infection or something like that. I have asthma now, which sucks. Me and my little brother do. But his is worse than mine. We have inhalers laying everywhere around this house.
I wish I had something to do. But I never do when i'm over here. I just sit around listening to music and chatting with people on the internet or watching TV. Nothing exciting. I'm listening to Pink Floyd now. Young Lust is the song. It's a pretty cool song. Not my favorite but it's ok. I guess I could go take a shower but i'm too lazy to get up. That's really sad but true.
Now about my whole love life problem...Chad is getting on my nerves telling people that we're dating, which isn't true. I just want to cause drama as he says. I hate it when people cause drama. I just don't want him lying to other people about what's going on between us. I swear I love that boy with all my heart but I just want to be single at the moment and he doesn't seem to get that. I don't know what's wrong with me...I just don't want to date anyone. It just gets old after a while. Geez.
Welp, I gotta call it quits because I need to go take a shower and then get ready to leave because I have to go to my brother's basketball game or some shit like that in Asheville. Laters.
mega16 | 03:05 pm
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May 22, 2005
I trust NO one.
Hey. I know is this a new blog. I said I wasn't going to do this anymore, well, I changed my mind. So here I am. Enjoy.
To start off with, my life has been nothing but crazy and insane the past couple weeks. I have been from my dad being an asshole to leaving his girlfriend to run back to my step-mom; me breaking my toe while running up my stairs; hanging out with my friends 24/7; picking up on my habit almost everyday for the past week; and best of all of this craziness...my love life. I wish that's all I could say but sadly it's not. My dad is being an asshole, once again, I honestly don't know what his problem is. He is back living with my step-mom. We all knew that was going to happen one of these days. I'm at their house right now and it's just weird. I think i'm too quite. That's what eveyone is telling me anyways. I honestly don't know what I feel about this situation. But I wish I could express it somehow. I love my dad but he does some dumb things. Now, about me breaking my toe. That's really funny. I was so excited about "eating" that I ran through my house like a mad man. I got to my stairs and tripped over the bottom one. My stairs are a bitch, ask anyone that has been in my house, and my toe cracked and made the worst noise I think i've ever heard in my life. It didn't really hurt at first. So I kept running up the stairs to my little room. I looked down at my foot and I see that it is bent in a funny way. I was like "oh shit". But I toked and then whined like a little bitch for the rest of the day. It still bothers me sometimes but it's feeling much better. Although, it is still funny looking. My mom is being really cool lately because I have been hanging out with my friends more now than I have in a long time. I guess i've been nicer to her lately or she is really cracked out. I'm not complaining though. Picking up on that habit is cool, I guess. I think it somehow is helping my lungs because they aren't hurting has much as they usually do. Which is definately a GOOD thing. I do need to slow down a tad bit. Its getting crazy but cool as hell. YAY, the fun part.
This is now why I do NOT trust anyone. As you know me and Chad are talking again or whatever. We're not dating and this is why. I've heard so much shit that is starting to piss me off. I know people talk shit and that's just a part of life. But why does it have to affect me so much. It all started because of Jeremy Rumfelt running his god damn mouth about shit he has NO clue about. Chad the dumbass believes him. I get pissed and cuss Chad out, which was well deserved and we finally get that settled. Then, he has to ignore me around his friends at school. First of all, that's some bullshit. All because of Brody god damn Hall. I hate that mother fucker with a passion. He has no business in my life what so ever. I really don't care if he is Chad's good friend or not. Friends don't fucking act like that. The others aren't that bad but I still don't like them. Now, all I hear is "he wants to bone you and leave you". I don't wanna believe that shit. Who would? All I can say he isn't getting any. I told him this from the start. So if that shit is true, then all I can say is fuck it because it ain't going to happen. I don't put up with bullshit. I have had a talk with Chad and somehow we can always find a way for it work out no matter what or who goes against us. Which now I think it's everyone. I don't think anyone knows what the word honesty means. Sorry if I offend anyone. But I seriously don't think anyone knows what the damn word means. HONESTY means to tell the truth no matter what. But be honest with yourself and peers and good things will happen. I wonder what the world be like if everyone was honest? A hell of alot better is all I know. I'm not saying I never lie. But I DO NOT spread bullshit about other people unless I know for a fact that it is true. I fucking hate people that talk bullshit about people they don't even know. It kills me. I swear if this bullshit ruins my friendship with Chad then I will fucking hunt the god damn person down a beat their face until they stop breathing. But if the bullshit is true then I will find Chad Byrd and beat his face in untill he stop sbreathing. And I fucking dare someone to try and stop me. I may be little but by god NO ONE messes with me over that boy. Including himself.
I do think that is enough bitching for one night. I'm going to try and sleep now but I don't think that's gonna happen. But i'll try. Laters. *_*
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